如果
如果我是一名演員，我願能扮演歷經滄桑，一名只有悲情的演員。 如果我是一名歌手，我願能演唱所有撕心裂肺 歇斯底里的歌曲。 此刻沒有其他好起來的想法 只有悲傷。 是安全感 是舒適圈 外界侵進不來 也不想管外界的內心小範圍。 那些我能控制的事是將耳機戴上 聽盡讓內心寧靜下來的歌曲。 從我無法控制 不知如何控制 不理解 不明白到有意識的點滴， Music heals and stay with me, always. This is the only thing that I can control. 聽或聽 停或不停。 When I feel like crying, I start to let tears drop as it should. Tearing reminds us to pause ourselves and focus on our inner space. 堅持不難 但不堅持更難。 那些相信的事 覺得無論如何都要堅持下去的事，掙扎是必有的。 因為知道需要堅持才有那麼一線的可能看見也許 而若不堅持的話 僅那麼一線的也許就真的看不見了 儘管也許是什麼仍是個疑問。跟未來一樣是看不見的。 I knew I have been stressing or pushing myself harsh for many years Even though I don't know why and what is the reason to put myself on this place I don't know. Acceptance. To accept I am an ordinary and sadness ducky. I love and do still believe in happiness. 兩者沒衝突，前者是一部分，後者也是部分的自己。 It is been a while that I stop and quit asking anyone around me describing or getting comments from them about myself. I am still on the journey for searching and understand about my strength, mysel...